Putih. I miss you.

Assalamualaikum

My heart breaks.. My cat is dead.. Tapi letak gambar bunga cantik sebab that was the time I had the feeling that he'll be gone.. I don't know!!  Heavy heart, something was wrong with him... He keeps ignoring us, with that sad face walking thru the grass.. That was the last.. The last time i saw him walking and resting.. Balik dari kedai, gemok dah sambut aku depan rumah, aku tanya dia mana putih,aku baru perasan yang putih terbaring atas karpet dan aku ingat dia tido, aku silap..dengan mata sedikit terbuka dan mulut ternganga, aku tahu dia dah tak ada.. Selama ni ada bela kucing juga..dah lama, itu pun dah tak jaga sebab ada orang ambil kucing tu.. So I never had this kind of feeling. Semalam aku macam okay lagi cuma aku tak boleh nak angkat/sentuh putih tu sebab aku harap dia bangun dan jalan macam biasa, aku nak dia datang kat aku minta belai. Aku tak pasti punca sebenar kematian putih..  Aku geram sebab aku tak tahu kenapa!! Hari ni lepas tanam, aku dah rasa kehilangan. Aku dah mula nangis. Aku rindu putih.. I never consider myself as a cat lover, because i wasn't, i was afraid of cat actually till i thought myself to accept and like 'em..this is the first time aku rasa sedih macam ni.. Sekarang aku dah faham kenapa orang menangis kerana kematian kucing.. Tempat dia baring aku tak sanggup nak duduk sebab rasa macam dia tengah baring lagi dekat situ.. Hmmm sadis.